so……. I was driving my friend Robbie back to the “rest home”. 86 years old, advancing ALS disease….dreading the day when he will be moved to the other side of the facility into full time nursed care. I know he is hoping he will die in his sleep because we have talked about it. Why he is in this prison and not at home is something I struggle to understand. He tells me at coffee, ” I called ****** yesterday. She was in a bad mood. Her leg hurt. I told her I would call her again when she felt better..” Oh! I had to bite my lip! There are things in that relationship I do not understand and will probably never know of. ****** is his wife of 50+ years who seems to have banished him to ‘that’ place. Ugh…things I will never know. “Oh well?” I say… as a close friend has advised me to use instead of the other word of indifference.
What is right and what is wrong? Not for me to judge I suppose. I really need to get comfortable with this concept as I move into Robbie’s age zone. I must. I asked Robbie, ” Do you think that at a universal level….all is right and proper?”, ” Absolutely” he answered, ” even with all the struggle, strife and trouble in this world?”, “Absolutely” …… “even if the human species succeeds in annihilating themselves and destroying the ecology of the planet?”….. “Absolutely”…… ” then it will be an opportunity of a species lifetime lost forever?”…. “The universe will not even notice Buzz…the universe is full of opportunity.”….. “Hmmmmmmmmmmmm…. see you Friday for lunch my friend?” ..” I look forward to it, ” he said and I drove away one more time from the prison they call a “rest home”.
On the threshold